Love.Slowie

Class bbq at Rachel's place

2010-01-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

After so long, finally we had a class gathering.
I was right to go there late.

I was less than 1hour away from the computer, and i started missing him.
Intriguing person, just some sort of charm he has.

Then the food was horrible, it was expensive.
The girls were playing some gross games, and it was abit lame for me.
I am "lame" - anything which require coordinations from 2 body parts, don't ask me.
My hands and mouth will never coordinate.
Soon, the guys joined in, and it was laugh-tacious.
Meaning, everyone laughing at each other.

Anyway, we figured out that they may be the ones idolising me.
I used to be the one who was doing such stuffs 2 years ago, but now they are doing it.
The trend now is to be semi-mysterious.
Being LOL and doing such disgusting stuffs in public is out of fashion already, at least that's what i think.
I guess uni life has made the girls that way.
However, the guys are still preetie much the same, and i like it that way.

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It is tough to have your mind on something, and the body doing something else.
I wish to keep my eye on those idiots 24/7, but i have even more stupid things to do.
Spending every morning with him, talking about vodka, and his life, talking about those fags and idiots who ruin my forum and mailbox, makes me abit relieved.
Relieved that we are still together in peace, while planning for the future.

Happy birthday DD~ and FREEDOM

2009-12-01T19:01:00.003+08:00

Weather: Cloudy

Me: Happy happy! =D

The long awaited holiday!

It has finally arrived.

The unlimited gaming and everything!

I came back from bugis with lotts of stuffs.

Dress, tops, and a super kawaii skorts!

I love it lotts, and we became broke.

The computer systems paper was super easy.

I finished it within 50minutes, despite the fact that its a 2hour paper.

Me: Err, the qn 4b need to give reason?

Prof: no, no need

Prof: You finish the paper already?

Me: Ya

Prof: you can leave now.

-ok the reason for me to finish the paper in such a short time, because i need TOILET!

If not, i sure slowly take my time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DD~

I wish she will like the prezzies i prepared - muahahaha!

Sitting on his car makes me feel weird, since i don't even remember talking to him in the 2 years of my life knowing him.

potato

2009-11-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

Weather: Warm!

Me: Drained after a whole day of mocking at people.

It wasn't my fault that i really laughed at people, or rather mock at them.

The story goes this way...

Yesterday was the release of PSLE results, and this year i have got 2 cousins who took psle. I was quite-not-so-surprised over hui's result, even though she lost to her not-so-clever sister by 1 point only. Then my mum called to ask for my uncle's number (as usual, she forgot to bring her hp out), and i remembered that shannon took psle too. When sis came back from her shopping, we talked about their psle results.

We were mapling...

Sis: I wonder how xuanning did.

Me: Aiya, sure do badly one la...

Sis: But her english good leh...

Me: But her chinese bad nehs...

Me: She jia-gan-dang one (direct translation: eat potato, indirect translation: speak english, dunno chinese at all)

Sis: Waa, u very bad lehs.

Me: She look like potato also -.- you know what is jia-gan-dang right?

Sis: Ya la.. i not so noob, ok?

Sis: You really bad leh, say people look like potato. oh ya, she very quiet also

Me: Potatos can't talk. =D

--------------And we laughed at this potato joke for the rest of the day

Today, we went to sembawang to *an-wei* hui. Actually, i just wanted to find a way to stop myself from playing maple. To my surprise, they said my uncle's family is coming over. They really, other than being big-in-size, dua pai (means big shot). They were the last to reach, and they reached after i digested my lunch. As expected, my mum will talk to my aunt about what school to choose. Sis and me started 'camping' and listened to their convo. After some time, after we collected enough information, we had a meeting with jun and hui in their parents' rooom. We started analysing the 'express' stream, and suddenly sis said that she maybe in normal acad. Then, i sort of guessed that she is in normal acad. And i started asking jun, hui and sis for their guess of her aggregate. Jun: 220, hui: 210, sis: 231, me: 179. And i went to spy on the convo again. In the mean time, those cunning girls got my ah-yi to tell them the aggregate and it is only 175. LOL~ i won the guess (closest to her results).

Somehow, the adults are obliged to keep her results a secret.

But i don't care.

I just keep laughing at her.

Potato cannot talk, no brains also.

And up until today, I still maintain the second position in my maternal family, the first is my sis, of course.

Ah-yi was glad that quan remained at third.

The end.

dumb girl

2009-11-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

at first, i find that she's maybe like me..
then i realise, she's the same as him.
and now, i dun like her.
and i regretted on-ing the webcam to show her my face, even though she said that i'm cute.
i think she's dumb, at least dumber than me.

i figured out what to ask for, as my christmas present this year.
A boyfriend
someone buy me a boyfriend please? and thanks!
i love you all lotts.

ma-leh-bwa

2009-11-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

Weather: Dark and cloudless

Me: Pretended

Acted cute in front of the webcam unknowingly.

So-wa-neh ma-leh-bwa~

That day...

Sis: (random) ipod touch

Mum: i ~ *poke* ~ *touch*

Today...

Me: what to eat for dinner?

Sis: Butter cheese cookie

-she meant, faster choose quickly.

I have been living in denial.

I had known it long ago, but i've been lying..

Lying to myself.

Some things, after you lose it, it will never return.

Just like the hair clips, necklaces and ring i've lost.

Even you are able to buy them back, it means nothing anymore.

Its worthless, after its broken.

How much effort i put in, just won't fix it.

chocolate motivation

2009-11-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool windy night

Me: Totally burnt out after 2 java past-year papers

Today, overslept by 2 hours.

I was supposed to wake up at 8am to do my java papers, but by the time i wake up, its 1008h.

I think i have to sleep at 5am today, to get another paper done.

I've been slacking around too much, especially wasting the time on fb teasing others.

So sorry for the stuffs i've said

Evening, spent too much time on dinner and stocking up.

But i still forgot to buy my correction liquid.

The one in my pencil box is dying.

Today, my handphone is unusually quiet, except for the call-of-disaster.

I never like it when he called to ask for another person's number.

He almost ruined my Jack's place dinner.

And there goes my new handphone plans again.

The tv shopping has been going on for weeks, but they just can't decide on which to get, or rather, they haven't decide to spend the money anot.

Today, mum finally set her eyes on a tv she would like to get.

Then, she see the price at best and courts, compare compare, and decided to wait for one more week. (for the price to drop again)

The truth is that, she've been waiting for weeks.

And the tv in my living room, its showing programmes in different colours everyday.

yesterday, it was grey...

2 weeks ago, it was red..

3 weeks ago, it was green...

I think, next week, BOOMZ~!!

I need motivations.

One chocolate per question?

By the end of exams, i will be super fat

econ + math

2009-11-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

Weather: After rain calmness

Me: After exams tiredness

Today's math paper was pathetically easy for the stats and pathetically difficult for the calculus.

Mr.FanTong killed us.

I totally skipped the determinant thingy.

Then the stupid sine curve question screwed everyone up, its a good thing that i have a brain which is working.

BUT in my hurry to finish the paper in order to have time to use the toilet, i did the integration question, and forgot to +C.

It was until after the econ paper, 8pm, on the bus then i realised. GG~

The colour-hair guy didn't do 47marks worth of question. WOAH~!

The econ paper was another killer.

I was just simply crapping through, and i forgot the equation to find real GDP.

At the end of first question, my hand is already at its limits, i can't go any faster.

I was glad that i can finish crapping the whole paper.

I need 43.5% out of 60% more to get A...highly impossible.

Miracles.Please.Happen.

Anyway, today it was another standard Sooooooo-siyi day.

I was the only one in my clique to be having econ at SRC.

And the worst case is that, i've been to SRC only once.

So apparently i got lost again.

And i forgot to check the exam venue de alphabet.

After i reach the SRC, i started panicking, because i cant find my sports hall 1.

I went to hall 3, and saw jacq.

Then i panic and began looking for toilet, i saw clarene.

On my way to toilet, i called ashley to help me check the alphabet.

BUT gosh, the toilet no signal, i had to walk to outside of the SRC building before i can actually sms her my id and pw.

Finally, i got my hall alphabet.

I went to ask jacq, crying that i'm lost.

And a nice stranger taught me how to go hall E.

In the end, i finally made it to hall E in a piece and met cindy.

I disturbed her last minute mugging

-The end-

Had a expensive fried rice dinner with cindy and gang, at jp foodcourt.

But it was okay, because i like being with them.

Everyone looked so worn out, after the math + econ torture, no one really talks.

We took train back together, and at least, the colour hair guy took train all the way with me.

Hmm..i think word really spreads, everyone knows about it.

Even people whom i don't know.

I should start keeping a lower profile than my current one.

And zip my mouth.

They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies, you little spies.

if only time flew like a dove

2009-11-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

Weather: Coolness after rain

Me: Feeling warm

Time flew past today.

Woke up feeling the stomachache.

It hurts more when i'm feeling nervous or guilty.

Prolly because of the dream i don't remember, anymore.

Did alot of econ papers, and died at it.

Seriously, economics and mathematics should not go together, unless you're a statistician?

Seeing the curves and equations, which makes zero math sense while it has lots of economics sense, makes me feel uneasy.

Then fell asleep after doing the third paper...

Woke up eat, then no mood study liao...

Slacked all the way till now.

I hope tomorrow faster come.. i cant sleep

does it helps if i hug my notes to sleep?

Im hoping that miracles will happen tomorrow..

Easy paper + dumb rivals = my advantage.

I love miracles.

twisted fate

2009-11-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cloudy after rain

Me: Feeling abit sick + bloated

Today, quite eventful day..

First, i panicked my way amk..

Then bought the stuff and taxi-ed back to hg..

And we started rocking out on the brand new rock band set.

I love the guitar. too bad no paramore songs.

Then, it was dinner with DD.

We had porridge, and i was bloated to the max.

Fresh fish porridge with egg rocks.

Next, it was on the bus...

He was on the same bus as me..

I tot he was sitting behind me, so i turned over to wave..

And the guy LOOKED AWAY..totally epic recognise wrong person..

So ps la..

Then he said he getting down soon, i went to see the bus stop, too late...

When i reached tampines, he said he got a feeling that i'll board the bus, purposely take the bottom deck.. if not, normally he will take upper deck.

He said its fated, but he twisted it.

After i reach tampines, i started rushing for the toilet..

I 'flew' to the T1 toilet..

And found a handphone in the toilet..

I opened up the pouch and realise its the same model as elis'

so i sms-ed elis to make sure it isn't hers..

Then i sms-ed my sis on what to do with the phone.

In the end, i took it, walked all the way home, and finally the person called..

And i walked all the way back to the mrt station to return it to her.

She gave me a pack of ferrero ~ and i gave to sis.

Glad that someone is happy with my kind deed.

And economic efficiency achieved.

Reason: The hp means alot to her, but to me, it means only the trade in value, which is $0. Furthermore, i value the walking as benefit. So there's no opportunity cost incurred.

Lol, i doubt the econs will work if i ever write this in exams?

The rain makes my head spin badly,

it was so bad that i needed to release the tears.

Why does it happen so frequently these few days?

Please stop this giddyness...and fatigue

Puddle of mud

2009-11-15T21:02:00.003+08:00

Weather: fine dark sky
Me: A puddle of mud inside me

True or false: The production of an apple contributes more to
GDP than the production of a gold ring because food is necessary for life
itself.
-Taken from past-year econ papers. -.-

Today was a quite a nice and quiet day.
Peaceful DAY in which i completed 1.5 math papers, and 1.5 econ papers.
I like to be alone at home.
Can have late lunch, can do more papers, can sing...
Its good to be alone.
When you're used to be alone, you're happy to be alone.

When night falls, i dunno why i start to feel this puddle inside me.
Its leaving me breathless.
I don't know why and what it is.

Just something stucked in between my heart and my brain, but i can't express it out with words.

Feeling...~~lonely~~ ~~disappointed~~ ~~sad~~

what's the word to use?

Maybe i'm just tired, but i'm sure that there's something inside spinning, which i still can't figure out.

Tomorrow's aim, 1 math and 1 econ paper + 1 econ chapter, i think.

darren & darena

2009-11-14T21:33:00.003+08:00

Weather: After rain coolness

Me: After rain emoness

Just came back from paul's place.

Had alot of funs with the twinnies.

Ands i took lots of photos.

But i feel lazy to upload all of them today.

So the two photos below are just a sneak-peek.

The one on top is Jr.Darren
The one below is Darena~

They both had octopus on their head

thanks to DD and my doings.

The rain made it possible, tears and rain drops.

How can you differentiate them when you're walking in the rain?

It rains when you're here, and it rains when you're gone

Speech + as2

2009-11-13T22:16:00.003+08:00

Weather: Stale

Me: Tired and bored

Today, its finally due, as2

Last minute chiong report in the morning.

And i heck care all the errors.

I did it with the best perfections i can ever come out with.

Finally i can have a good night's rest

Yesterday was speech.

Well, it was a freaking screwed up.

The guy who was supposed to present before me, had a panic attack

So he was forced to pass his turn first

I see him panick, i panicked also.

In the end, it turned out as "my eyes were white"

That's yL said.

Burns* my pocket this week.

Had too much good food.

don't know why there's this emptiness in me.

is it because that there's nothing for me to do?

feeling empty.

And i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called...

bad + good night

2009-11-11T08:42:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny as ever

Me: Confused

Just woke up a moment ago.

Last night i fell fast asleep the moment i laid on my bed.

Because i woke up at 5.30am to go to school to do as2 with elis.

Another reason is that i was working on my as2, the moment i got home, all the way till 10plus-pm.

I had this nightmare, my as2 program suddenly ki-siao.

Everything's wrong!

My jGrasp started running haywire.

The program anyhow run.

Then, i can't solve it, i can't stop it either.

I was crying for help, so much that i woke up with tears ._.

It was 1.26am

Then, i finally fell asleep again.

This time, it is something good.

We were all back together at a carnival today.

The 6/7 of us.

As usual, i'm always happy to be with them.

Then somehow, i lost my slippers and other people, except him.

So i need to walk around barefooted to find my slippers / buy new slippers.

I had problem walking barefooted on that kind of rough surface.

I asked him to lend me his hand and shoulder abit.

I walk walk, ouch ouch.

He buay tahan my whining, and carried me to go find slippers.

After walking very long, we suddenly see another friend sitting in coffeeshop talking to my grandpa.

To my horror, that friend is actually very well-known in that area, all the oba-san and oji-san know him.

So the very well-known friend lead us to a shop selling slippers.

On the way there, i feel very ps that he was carrying me.

So i ask him to put me down, and i whine all the way walking.

Then suddenly, the rest of the group popped up.

They started giggling behind, probably gossiping.

Everyone except me just keep giggling =/

Then we reach a convenience stall, the guys just went along choosing sweets and i asked the storekeeper for cigarettes.

Everyone was O_O , the storekeeper asked me how old

Then i decided not to buy the cigarettes, i asked for the price.

It looks cheaper than usual by abit.

I felt tempted, but i think better not.

Then we continued to search for shoe shop.

While we were walking, one of them asked me why i wanna buy cigarettes.

I told them its for the speech tomorrow. o.o

And the whole group of them felt relieved.

O.O they act like they scared i smoke.

Anyway, we finally reach the shoe shop.

They guys waited outside, she went in with me.

I just took a pair of pink slippers and asked for my size.

The shop lady like deaf, or rather stupid.

I ask for size 4, she replied "there 40"

I see the slipper behind write, 26...

I scold the shop auntie baka, dunno wad is 26 and 40.

Then he chionged in, say this is sell kids shoes de shop.

So he got me kids size 40, and it fits!

And its piink!

Everyone outside laughed at my small leggs.

In the end, i managed to make everyone happy.

At least that's good, and someone carried me. =D

My fear and wish made up my night.

i love her monologue

2009-11-09T15:57:00.004+08:00

Weather: Raining
Me: Done and sick of programming

This is Taylor Swift's monologue.
Seriously cool.
I like the way she does it - Joe and Kanye - especially Joe.

If i can, i'm sure to do a monologue of my own.
SCREW YOU PROGRAMMING!
I gave up on assignment 2.
None of the stuffs work.
Read file, but can't produce. keep looping the stupid thing.
The song goes, "Somehow everything's gonna fall into place..."
Before it falls into place, I am already dead!

I wanted to do my report on my laptop, then i realised i need to install the microsoft office again.
BUT, i lost my disc.
pek chek lehs.

I wish there's an angel.
An angel who is pro in programming, who can help me to debug.
An angel who only cares for me.

Too Pressurized? over translateApp?

2009-11-08T15:43:00.004+08:00

Weather: Hot and humid

Me: Have been singing the same song since morning

Just managed to complete my translateApp

this time, "error-free", can compile

Lets hope the mainApp would be much easier than this

everytime an idea me, i need the toilet badly.

After using the toilet, i "flushed" it down the toilet bowl.

then im stucked again

I'm running against time

if only time would wait for me, miss slow

There's no way i can memorise the stupid speech from head to toe, in 2 days time.

'cuz its not CHEMISTRY.

I can say i love chemistry now because i dun take it anymore.

I can feel the pressure~

Its getting closer now~

We're better off without you~

abnormal?

2009-11-06T14:40:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cloudy

Me: Going to school soon

Just completed my database, with 10 errors.

Pathetic.

She said my relationship with him is so abnormal, unlike anything like elis'

But she didn't know about the other guys.

I am a bad bad girl.

I don't like him, unlike what she said.

Windows 7 is ugly.

The bottom bar is toooo thick.

And i had to re-install my programs again.

The truth is hiding in your own eyes.

whitebird trying to jaywalk?

2009-11-04T13:43:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny after rain

Me: Bored

I was in school today for math tutorial only.

Had lunch with elis.

Apparently, the petty guy is angry with her.

Not very much of my business too.

After lunch, we went to take bus, and i saw THIS. vv

A bird by the side of the road.

He wanted to jaywalk.

He stepped on the road, then see car coming, walk back up to the grass.

Then after that, he decided to try again, but the same thing happened again.

Poor thing, i dunno how long will he take to cross the road.

Prolly, they need to learn how to use the overhead bridge, like the dog. (There was this dog who crossed the bridge that day.)

Yesterday, it was fun at mind's cafe with the girls.

Ladies' night - offer!

And the set meal was big, so cwarie and i shared one.

Nice nice foodie and nice nice games
And we had this game, a voting game, named True Colours.

There is this question in which i got the most vote.

Q: Who do you think have the most interesting life?

I can't really remember, maybe it was, who do you think have the weirdest life.

Haish, i tried my best to be normal.

Can't really blame me for having weird things occuring by my side ~~everyday~~ everytime.

Went to elis hostel yesterday.

Din get to see the shuai ge on the opposite block.

Oh, i just realised yesterday that my viwawa fren stays in the same hall as her.

Haven get to see him in real life yet.

I really tried to be more normal.

To be normally friendly, normally indifferent, normally reacting, normally behaving, normally in love.

taken aback by surprises

2009-11-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

Weather: Humid and warm

Me: Sneezing away

Today i was taken aback by surprises.

Sis agreed to have lunch with me - mac again

Surprisingly, she came with joyce and THAT...a big case of TROMBONE!

i'm not sure how to spell it-but its a musical instrument.

She just pass it to me like that, and i almost fell over with the instrument.

Joyce and her keep laughing.

And we me managed to shop around with that big and heavy thing.

The next surprising thing is him, her friend.

He sms-ed me today.

Surprisingly, we have quite abit to talk.

Nice friend she have.

Tomorrow, i finally can get to see that guy in my class again.

I like to see him, even though he's abit white.

Ashley's advice on that is forget everything, and not go.

Likely to be a s***

My very first pancake

2009-11-01T16:04:00.003+08:00

Weather: windy

Me: Leggies painpain

Just done with my lab works.

Lab7 - still sot sot.

Lab8 - PERFECT!

This is how the first pancake i made in my life looks like. This one i poured some syrup on top of it ler, that why look like got smth on top. The shape, i don't know how i got this shape one. I wonder if anyone would fancy some pancakes like this for christmas this year? Maybe can be used to decorate the christmas tree.

I never wanted to make pancakes.

Mum tricked me into it.

This morning, after i brush teeth, 9am.

Mum: -reading papers- i'm going to sleep now, not enough sleep. Make some pancakes for your sis to eat.

She knows i'm going to take at least one hour to make the pancakes and its going to look inedible, she still made me do it.

In the end, dad came back, he saw my pancakes, he laughed at me, then zhao out of the house liao.

He don't want to eat!

Sis woke up at 11am and saw the pancakes, "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! so ugly"

Mum even need to add potato chips to go with the pancakes to make it taste better.

And they left the last two ugliest pieces for yeye and dad.

GG. none of them is gonna eat it.

Last night, i dreamt that i lost my teeth. My molars just dropped out on its own...and premolar too. I lost 3 tooth in one night! I was chewing on fish. Then i felt something big in my mouth. I thought its fish bones. I tried to push it to the front and spit it out. But i suddenly felt one more. So there's two. I managed to spit one out onto the dinning table. My mum shrieked. She asked me why spit out my own teeth. But then, because of the other one inside, i couldn't talk. Till, i manage to spit out the second one, then i could tell her "i dunno". She asked me which tooths are they, i use my tongue to feel feel abit and tell her wisdom. Feeling relieved. Then i feel feel again, i screamed, "MOLARS!" and we two started panicking together. Just when we panicking, my premolar dropped out too. And i started crying! Then i feel feel my premolar area, "eh? how come got mini-tooth?" Then i realise, i was in the pri-sch-size-of-siyi~ o.o But nevertheless, i woke up and checked my mouth and make sure that all my teeh are attached to my gums.

I don't want to go out of my house.

Stupid?

2009-10-31T14:53:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Dizzy

This morning, woke up at 6am, wanted to sleep in more.

But my left leg was in pain.

Its been a long time since it hurts.

Mac breakfast i had 4 sets this week.

Make me fat only.

My pants all feel tight tight liao.

Java tutorial - killer.

~~happy~~ thing:

~~we talked again~~ he suan me yesterday.

He: How come you always sitting alone at the back? No friends?

Me: I meeting my friend.

He: You see here where got friends? All empty seats.

Me: She's coming later.

Then i sms ashley to come faster, 'cuz he said i no friends.

Sms: Come faster... The black guy sitting behind me suan me no fren...

When ashley came in and settled down, then she saw the sms.

She: WHERE GOT BLACK GUY? behind you? your hou mian also no one

I bet he heard her.

Me so ps =/

So i ended up feeling so ps for the whole lecture and din turn my head around to see him.

The econ test was killer.

But somehow the feeling is back.

The feeling of songs floating in your head, which speeds my thinking process.

Okay, i admit that i was thinking about paramore's songs, abit too fast.

I ended up to be the first to complete the econ test.

I wish this feeling will last forever - so i can speed up even more.

Its been 2 years since i had this feeling.

Had dinner with jojo.

Go! Go! Curry! - DD mentioned it before, and so we our own pockets.

Not bad wor, but i cook one better.

Visited adeline at work.

She also small small girl.

She said i look 15, 16 years old like that - flattered.

Slack in that store for quite sometime.

Lets hope she won't ask me out on monday.

He said girls are stupid.

I am a girl.

Me = girl = stupid?

I think the stupidiest thing is to have loved him.

I hate people who say i'm stupid.

They called me down for interview.

How? I said i don't want.

And she insists that i must go.

new lab sup

2009-10-29T18:20:00.003+08:00

Weather: Humid

Me: Bored

Today i had my lab session.

New lab supervisor this time.

They said the old one go back china already - dunno true anot.

She was supposed to interview me lab7, but i told her that i can't do at all.

So she bo bian, interview me lab6.

But the worst case for me is to be interviewed on lab6, 'cuz i forgot to type in comments.

Almost died explaining to her.

I had zero ideas that my codes are that hard to 'decode'.

Quite sad, didn't manage to see him today.

Probably because i forgot how he looks like already.

During lecture, it was freezing, and it sure hurts to be shivering from the inside out.

Sleep, doze and sleep.

The lunch topics for these two days are mostly about her boyfriend.

I think its good that i made my point about i don't like him, since that year.

Jiayous, dump him and jio JX!!

Feelings can be changed forcefully.

Memories can be replaced too.

new nickname

2009-10-28T16:41:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool - after rain

Me: Mugging econs

Econs is so difficult to digest.

As tough as vectors.

Today at vector's lecture, it was kind of boring till i fell asleep a few times.

Partly because i got ps by ashley again.

Surprisingly, he came in late and sat the seat on my top left corner.

We managed to talk abit after the lecture.

But im still wondering over the new "name" he called me.

Apparently, he doesn't know my name, and i have no wish of introducing myself like an idiot.

Hence, i think i should just go along with that.

im not in the same math tutorial as him.

Elis and me slept halfway through the math tutorial, partly because the tutor is boring, and i don't get it?

However, the main reason is because the girl behind me is singing her indian song.

It sounded kinda like lullaby to me, and so i fell asleep.

The math tutorial is kind of goner for the teacher, because hardly anyone is listening.

The other two indian girls were talking, the handful of singaporeans camping behind are talking too, the foreign students on the left also talking and doing other stuffs, and ashley was playing soccer on her ipod touch.

And i din know that the tutorial ended, i woke up saying, OH IT ENDED!

Feel sorry for her. - Gomen for falling asleep in the front row.

And i pont the rest of school today again, just to "study" econs.

I ended up clearing my animes which i haven finish watching.

Anyway, can't blame me for sleeping in classes today.

Blame sis.

Last night, she SUBCONSCIOUSLY threw her bunnies and blankies on me, when i was sleeping in the coffin.

So i was bombed the whole night through.

I threw the stuffs back to her, and she bombed me back.

I din even have a proper night of rest.

Its like walking on a thin thread.

The difference between cute and plump.

drilling

2009-10-27T16:50:00.002+08:00

Weather: Prettie cool

Me: Stuck singing in my own bunk

Its almost the end and the start of my super boring life.

The end is because i just gotten myself into some trouble again.

Ahaha~ apparently i like that guy in my class, intelligent and good-looking.

Much better looking than the others you can find in my school.

Okay, but that's still not the main thing.

There is this chinese lady who caught me today when i was looking for toilet.

Apparently, i just woke up from the long train ride with the stinky girls, and i have no idea what she really said to me in chinese.

I only knew she asked for my contact number, and i gave her.

After i gave her, then i asked her what is it again.

And i realised its an ADVERTISING company recruiting "models"?

Seriously, do i look tall enough for it? or even preetie enough? Unless, its for kid's apparel?!

Sad-ed, can't reject her after i give the number.

Have to wait for them to call, and reject.

The start of my super boring life is because exams are coming.

With me needed to digest chapters and chapters of shakespear's-like classics of programming, computer systems and economics, this is seriously gonna be tiresome.

Just now the drilling outside of the house, disturbed my studying of economics.

I had no choice but to scream with my rock music.

Haish, now i hungry.

I pont jawa lecture to come home to study, and it ended up like this.

Wasted one afternoon again.

I've been thinking about the gift which they had given me, its the best.

a pair of hands

2009-10-23T20:35:00.003+08:00

Weather: Stale air.

Me: Thinking about things.

On the train...

I kept staring at my pair of hands.

They are so small.

Suddenly i feel weak, so weak that i realised i'll never get to hold something important.

Maybe because i am borned with nothing, its okay to be living for so many years with nothing, and of course, to die with nothing.

What gives people power? what is something important?

Is it that pair of hands which gives them power to hold on to something important?

Stealth mode...

Can i be on stealth mode? or rather, can i be a ghost?

To be wandering in circles?

My existance is unknown, to be a dead-walking-alive.

Maybe shortness is a natural aid for me to be unseen by certain people.

The lack of courage to even run away...

From now on, i'll take everything in, keeping them in.

Silence is golden, silence is a killer and a saviour.

She gave me an opportunity to meet him today.

But i rejected.

Its a very tempting offer, to see a botak shuai-guy in school.

But i rejected.

I'm afraid that i would remember anything in that happened in that two years of my life.

So tormenting, that it caused me to hide behind the computer screens, and i stopped socialising with people for some time.

Now that i've forget, but can't forgive, i don't wish to remember.

The only time i'll see him will be IF she ever marries him, AND invite me to her wedding.

yL: Happy shopping!

Thanks for that line and explaining to him.

dumb senpai

2009-10-22T20:20:00.004+08:00

Weather: Stuffy

Me: Utter suayness or rather, pissed.

I don't know how you going to react to this, but i feel pissed at the dumb senpai who did the math paper solution.

Let me explain what happened.

Today, as usual, for the econs lecture, i wasn't really paying attention.

I was doing my math paper.

Then there is this question 1b - differentiation.

For me, this question is of zero challenge to me.

So i did it and flipped the paper to check the answer (which was supposed to be done by a AID senior who got A/A+ for math module. Yeah, it means that they are AID to make solutions for us.)

To my greatest horror, my answer and the senior's answer doesn't match.

So i went to re-do the question again, using a different approach.

I still cant get the senior's answer.

Then i tried the senior's method (the first 3 steps), still cant get the answer.

Finally, i just decided to evaluate the senior's method fully, and i realised there's a mistake in step 4.

WTH?! Its either a careless mistake or the senior is just pure stupid who can't multiply properly.

And of course, when you are paid to do something, can't you do it properly and ask a friend to check it for you?

Well, another reason i can come up with, is that, the whole cohort got A/A+ for math module, since it is an open-book exam. Therefore, ANY IDIOT also can qualify for solutions-making.

Life seriously sucks with dumb people around.

Quiz is tomorrow.

I have no idea how to do, algorithm in pseudocode.

Screwed up speech today too.

ROT! Only if it was singing assignment, in class.

The lab sup seriously pms me today.

Test this, test that. whywhywhy?

Me: -silence- but hor, the question paper never say need to test extra test cases.

I rebutted him - byebye A+/A.

He: your program got problem.

Then, facebook...my account... what happened?!!!

If i have that 50k, i will...

Jawa assignment 2

2009-10-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

Weather: Once in a while, windy

Me: Thinking about as2, headache.

I've been thinking about assignment 2 for a few days.

Today i finally settled down and started typing some things on my jGrasp.

Its seriously tough.

I need help.

BUT, sadly, this world is full of selfish people, scared people snatch away their A+/A.

They always use the same excuse, "I'm scared of being accused of plagarism."

The thing is, even if you give advice, there is always a way around to make sure that there is minimal plagarism issues - it all lies on style.

Please give me some advices on how to do angels

I think its much better if i forget that fact, or just believe in him.

He will be good to her.

horrified

2009-10-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

Weather: Dark and stale

Me: Horrified

I was talking to her just now.

Then i realised something horrifying, the dp, he is...

Oh my innocent innocent friend.

I couldn't bear to tell her - I guess she knows.

Even if she doesn't, i am prepared to just pretend that i don't know anything.

I dislike him.

I met him today, on my way to meet cwarie.

I didn't know cwarie was gonna be late.

If i had known, i could've spent more time talking to him.

Talking to him just now was like back to the physics lab, where we always compare heights.

They can make it funny.

It wasn't mockery, it was just about how much we can make fun of each other and the physics experiments.

The best part is...he is still so skinny.

The best nightmare for tonight is him.

Feel like giving up

2009-10-14T20:33:00.002+08:00

Weather: Fair

Me: Feel like giving up

Today's interview was a mess for me, partly because i wasn't really prepared mentally and physically.

I never thought that interview is so simply tough to get through.

And my clothes were oversized - thats the second reason why im in a messy state of mind.

Without nice and proper clothes, i feel messed up and frustrated.

To add on to my already-messed-up-state-of-mind, the girl who sat beside me is a model~!!!

Obviously, she is tall and preetie and slim, with lots of make-up.

Too dazzling to be true.

After the interview, her friend took us through the sheltered way to south spine.

Unknowingly, we crossed the bridge which the guy jumped last academic year.

Ahaha~ cuz its raining and we don't have other choices.

Is it okay for me to be alone forever?

I've been giving my all in things which i wanted, but life is not about getting everything i want.

Unlimited wants VS Limited supply.

How do i go upon achieving the happiness i want in life?

If i don't have anything to start with, if i don't have any desires, will i be happier?

Patrick said before, "You are borned alone, and you will die alone."

I still remember the vector-guy whom i never understand.

Actually what he meant was to ask us not to crowd around in the LT.

你要的爱

2009-10-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool

Me: Wondering

我明白我要的爱

会把我宠坏

像一个小孩

只能在你怀里坏

你要的爱

不只是依赖

要像个大男孩

风吹又雨晒

生活自由自在

Geek is back. I'm glad.

Inflation is back, huh?

welcome back

2009-10-11T21:00:00.002+08:00

Weather: Dark and windy

Me: Burning

I have no idea how much are those stuffs weighing on my small body.

The morning exercises hurt my stomach muscles.

The one-hour shopping hurts my leg.

If i can choose between the mental health and physical health, what would i choose?

Its been two years since that happened.

Now, its back - officially, it seems.

Welcome back.

My endocrine system is hectic again.

It seems to be that every part of my body is a result of endocrine failure.

The extreme body temperatures, the shortness of my height, and alot more.

Heal me or break me.

a dream i cant hold on to...

2009-10-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

Weather: Hot and dark

Me: Emo-self

Dream...

Maybe an embrace is all i need...

That strength is all i need to keep me going...

But its something i can't hold on to...the dream...

It seems like the break is breaking me

Program terminating.... - probably she's right.

I can't rely on anyone to give me strength, i don't want to rely on anyone to give me the strength - but i can't...

Please take care of my soul when i'm sleeping - i tend to lose them when being asleep

Its the first time i got A- for my english, probably my last time also.

Letter writing isn't my forte, but maybe the class is weak enough for me to tackle for an A-.

Celebrates*

no time

2009-10-06T22:08:00.003+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Too rush ._. and dying

Its been a long time since i blogged.

Busy with assignments, work, games, and anime.

Health problems have finally caught up with my age.

Its been 1year plus since i've turned 18.

Maybe its time to visit the doctor again - after this semester i guess.

Hopefully i won't die after 2 months.

After all, its not a terminal illness.

The way they spoke to me, isn't it the same?

I am married to the computer forever, and i will love him for all my life.

That's how much i love it, to be able to always smile in front of the people and things you love the most.

I told him that i got too many things to remember, too much to even allow storage for useless memories like that.

The chemistry mechanism-es, who still remembers?

boey is back

2009-09-19T08:39:00.002+08:00

Weather: Hazy

Me: Eating hard version "turkish delight"

WELCOME BACK~!! my long legged best friend

Boey is back from Brunei.

The first thing i got from him this morning (which is an hour ago) was his wake up call.

Well, if you know me well enough, i can't really talk on the phone when i'm asleep.

But he managed to make me awake ._.

Boey: Anything you want from dfs?

-immediately awake-

I couldn't figure anything i want, so i told him to get something for the clique's consumption.

The first thing that would wake me up through the phone on a weekend morning is ALCOHOL?

Yesterday was hilarious, maybe stupid.

Cwarie and me miscommunicate =/ on the train issue.

Oh and we came out on the new joke of the week, because of leon.

Leon was suggesting movie and lunch on monday, few days back.

Me: Dunno monday cwarie got school anot... London no hari raya.

-2 minutes later-

Leon: Hahas yea she got school but we can always meet in the evening right? Hahas

And i heard from cwarie, she doesnt have to attend school on monday, because its a public holiday~!!

I was joking when i told leon that cwarie may have school since london don't have hols because of hari raya.

And he really went to ask her, and she answered him 'YES'.

Oh my.

Yesterday's job was slacker than i thought.

I love it lotts.

He is nice and long legged too.

Gonna have lots of it next week.

Gomen~ geek, cant play too much le, i guess...

Dream again

2009-09-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool and hazy = no link
Me: Looking forward to my tiring day tmr

Dream...
That man... he wanna be my goddaddy.
But i think he's old enough to be my grandpa.
Anyway, its because i look like his pass-away-daughter.
Its a dream...

Last night, dream...
No more angelic face... only poker face.
But he loves me, more than that angelic face, i felt.
The embrace... it feels as though i can feel his feelings.
My special friend, who isn't my best friend nor ordinary friend, not boyfriend too.
Can i embrace you the next time?

Whenever it reaches the colder part of the year, i become more moody.
How many times do i feel like crying when im on the train and bus?
And how many times did i actually cried?
I lost count.
Perhaps it just increases with age.
I feel old and i hate kids.

How much do i want to tell you that its you?
Let it rest.

fish therapy

2009-09-16T17:56:00.003+08:00

Weather: Rainy
Me: Happy!

Just came back from the fish therapy.

Just in time, before the rain pours.

The fishes were itching me and clarice so much that we cant help but to keep laughing.

Anyway, i have to say byebye to dead skins and $8.

I feel like going there every month only if i'm rich enough.

Gomenasai ~ fishy for overfeeding you.

Talking about money, i still have my shopping funds for this month - untouched.

I really hope money can buy time, i wanna to buy clothes.

I saw the stalker on my way out again.

I immediately chiong for the carpark and almost kennan knock down by car.

I hate him.

I really hate taking the train nowadays.

Because i live in tampines and study at NTU, so most of the time i can get non-priority seats on the train to and back from school.

And, I observed that the priority seats were mostly taken up by OL's aka working aunties.

When en elderly come into the train, most of them don't give up their seats to the elderly, they just let the feeble old man stand there and risk falling down.

I always wanna to stand up to give up my seats, but the old people are always too far for me to reach out to.

The train is always so crowded - morning, afternoon, evening.

Stop laughing at me.

Hot vs ice

2009-09-15T15:33:00.003+08:00

Weather: HOT and sunny

Me: Stuffed up in north spine eateries feeling freaking warm.

My fault for sitting at such a hot spot, partly because that the library is filled with selfish people.

It is also my fault for listening to Britney's songs Hot as ice and Everybody.

Its all about hot and temperature rising.

For the past one week, my body is experiencing exothermic reactions.

It feels so warm at night i can't sleep.

I am not having fever though.

Yesterday he asked me a question you would need someone to take care of you, right?

I don't know - i told him that i still can cope on my own now.

I am so used to taking care of myself and getting into trouble now that i don't know if i should let someone to take care of me.

I like being alone, and persuing my dream alone.

Just registered as subcomm for a club just now, i don't know if i should do it.

Its as though like my pathetic comp science student life hasn't been more pathetic enough.

So i think i'll try to cope with the boredom tmr afternoon 5.5hours.

That is ...

Yume

2009-09-14T10:05:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Filled with prata, potato and cheese

Dream...

He appeared in my dream again.

I could touch his angelic face again.

This time, it still feel so real.

There was more people this time.

I was interrogated - the same way DD's mum did it.

The voice is the same as that of my best fren's mum.

Then i woke up...

TyJay for the nice nice songs.

Feel tempted to rent DVDs to watch.

Apparently, assignment question 1 is too easy that i took less than an hour to finish.

Thanks for the bonus - mr. jawa.

But aren't the lab questions abit too difficult?

I got sort of my birthday wishes planned out.

Waiting for that day to make my wishes only.

My birthday presents

2009-09-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

Weather: Fair

Me: Tired

TyDD for buying me a new boyfriend - Mr. Slow. This is the laptop case given by BA peeps.

I you guys for knowing i piink!

Today, the girls from PRSB came over to NTU in their school uniform

Then they requested to tour the chinese heritage centre.

I brought them there and we had lots of fun.

CT and joycee were totally freaked out by the statue in the first room we entered.

So they were so scared to enter the second exhibition room, partly because the second room is painted black and has lots of black and white photos with mirrors too.

Anyway, in the end, we managed to PULL them in.

Me and Joanne sort of became CT's guardian angel

Hahaa. We saw a photo of Tiger Woods inside.

And we didn't know he has a mixed background - 1/4 african-american, 1/4 thai, 1/4 chinese, 1/8 cherokee, 1/8 english.
Wow, i think he has more than Nini.

Tuesday, i pont my jawa lecture just to have sakae sushi with DD and jojo.

Nice ~ $18 bucks flew away and i grew fatter.

Saturday was my birthday celebration with the BA.

Really enjoy being with the guys and clarice.

Life seriously sucks after i enter uni - no nice guy fren.

Girls also not that nice.

I the drawing that hayden drew. I the piink bag and laptop case. I the process which i find my present. I the cake. I playing mahjong and bridge. I wilber pan. I the movie.

I wanted to ask a question, but...

Sweet dream finally

2009-09-05T08:37:00.002+08:00

Weather: Semi-sunny

Me: Can't wait to go Hayden's place

Finally, last night, i had a sweet dream, after all those nights of dying, fighting and arguing.

He was there.

I could touch his face angelic face.

I was the same girl in front of him.

Nothing changed, except that he became nicer.

There's this DIY sushi store, and he made handrolls for me.

While he was making it, he scalded his hand - rice too hot.

I could do nothing but to watch.

I didn't attend the work and travel usa talk yesterday, because ashley ps-ed me.

She's been skipping lessons (= ps me) for so many times.

Even bridge days too.

But well, she's nice when she's around.

And its still nicer to have her around.

So when ashley isn't around, i spent most of the time with wayne, teaching him more about the singapore culture and singlish.

I almost made him sad because i said he was being unfriendly if he doesn't speak singlish.

But actually, what i meant was, when speaking to singaporeans on informal occasions, he'll sound more friendly with singlish, i.e. talking to friends on the dining table.

And i think he doesnt't get what i meant.

So that makes me sad.

Hungry~~

Uncle in ndp pack o.o

2009-09-03T21:02:00.004+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Only finished with copying of CPU T.T

The middle guy in the picture is my uncle.

Plump plump de.

Anyway, this picture was found on one of the NDP's book in the goodie bags they gave this year.

I think its on the back of the book.

This is my setup for pandaPOWER.

I love hellopanda.

This morning, i ordered subway.

WRONG! i wanted ham & egg.

In the end, i ordered western egg.

And guess what?

Subway guy: Ham&egg?
Me: Western egg
-1 min later-
Subway guy: Ham & egg?
Me: Western egg
-1 min later-
Subway guy: Ham&egg?
Me: Western egg

So he asked me 3 times, and i screwed it up 3 times.

So i had ONIONS in my sub T.T

I really have to be conscious when ordering subway - i was sleepy.

And the onions really screwed my appetite up.

I smelled of onions in my mouth for the whole day, till i get home to rinse it off.

Oh, i just realise something.

Mr. dinosaur is from hci? Not that i care.

But if he is, he should have more brains than that.

Maybe he didn't take econs back then. hmm...

What if ... i wish for the same wish again this year?

my first experience with sis in ntu

2009-09-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

Weather: Rainy

Me: Sore leggies again

Today i brought sis to school with me.

Then it rained HEAVILY.

Despite the rain, we still went to jurong point to get a padlock for my locker.

In the end, both of us got semi-washed.

Came back and had lunch with ashley.

Had foodcourt food, cheap enough to be wasted.

Don't know why we had bad bad appetite today.

Then went for a walk at library level 5, in hope for a good seat with plugs, but to no avail.

We had to camp at macs, till 4.30pm for my jawa lecture.

Jawa lecture was interesting with sis around.

She doodled on my tutorial papers. Mum saw it and laughed at it just now.

I hope she would come again with me during her sept hols.

Sorry for being too straightforward.

I don't want to get hurt again.

*bleeds*

oh pissed karaoke

2009-08-30T18:07:00.002+08:00

Weather: Rainy

Me: Ran back home

Today was supposed to be a happy day for me.

Finally i can get to sing for all i want, perhaps with mum, aunt and uncle singing their oldies too.

But, my evil sister and cousin spoiled everything for me.

While the adults are out for teabreak, they bullied me.

Blocked my screen, made snide renmarks and noise on the spare microphone.

Seriously, i hate them since i was "that small". (perhaps since 6 years old)

In the end, i "ran" home crying...

..all the way from yishun back to tampines.

Recently, i'm under too much stress.

Almost every night, i had nightmares about me dying.

Last night, i was awaken by the nightmares thrice.

I died twice, another one was a heated argument with a junior leader.

I hate juniors and kids.

I wanna to be like xiaoquan.

Everyone likes him, because he is always not around.

23rd in rock-climbing competition or singapore, whichever.

Always get to go overseas for competition.

Now, he's in korea.

He's good-looking too.

But i wanna keep my smart brain.

He would have been perfect if he's smarter.

I will never go there to sing again.

Mental block

2009-08-29T12:30:00.002+08:00

Weather: Hot

Me: Mental block ._.

Suddenly had this mental block when doing my math homework.

Kind of pissed me off, i cannot solve anything regarding to variance and standard deviation.

Yesterday i had dinner with cwarie at KFC.

So happy, its been 2weeks since i last talked so much.

BUT, why they don't have original chicken? T.T

I like original T.T

Ok, new item that i may like it as my birthday present.

Coloured foolscape - anything but green.

Cuz i used to have green until it disappeared, till i dunno where.

Tomorrow is finally the family karaoke day again!

The last time was on father's day? or was it mother's day?

I've been waiting for tomorrow!

That's why im forcing myself to finish up all my tutorials by tonight 10pm.

Hard - still left with econs, java log book, communications reading up and java reading up.

Oh, i finally succeeded in writing a java program.

That's question 1 on my tutorial, so i'm merely doing a homework.

Didn't save though.

There's a blackhole on my nose - you.

Dizzy

2009-08-27T09:03:00.003+08:00

Weather: Dark and cloudy

Me: Dizzy

Today's union day, so i've decided to take a small break from it.

Nothing and no one for me to vote for.

Staying at home and slack is still the best for me.

Too bad that my forum account was created after 30th June.

Anyway, that was a stupid and unclear rule.

Gambatte DD.

There is a thorn.

If i am not careful enough, i will get pierce and bleed hard.

Too close ._.

Wishlist 2009

2009-08-25T14:02:00.002+08:00

Weather: Looks fine to me.

Me: Stuffed up in the library - bored.

The first draft of my wishlist:

1. Tons of friends

2. Tons of boyfriends

3. A bimbotic laptop case

4. A practical-cum-bimbotic keychain

5. Tons of hello panda - pandaPOWER

6. A bimbotic backpack

7. A new pair of slippers again.

8. Perhaps more clothes?

9. Distinctions?

10. Still working on it.

11. More to come.

12. Anything funny.

13. Anything outta box.

14. Anything kawaii.

15. Cash also can.

16. Maybe edible stuffs.

Seriously, if money can buy alot of things, i want everything, especially distinctions.

I wanna get out of this shit asap - drowning.

Anyway, i had the ~~jawa~~ java lecturer for my tutorial's tutor.

YAY! He's quite good at conducting tutorial.

The systems' tutor is a all-rounder.

He does community service, studys bio, a mediator and alot more.

Nice to be joining his tutorial.

Am i really too stress?

I died again last night, because of my wrong decision, i killed them all.

I tried to save you, but we all died together in the end.

gomenasai~

Ge-tai

2009-08-22T21:33:00.004+08:00

Weather: Windy, like that of a typical lunar 7th month.

Me: Bored-ing to death.

Ok, so now i am bored, because the tv is not showing nice shows (perhaps because i've watched that one before).

So i just simply uploaded my own picture taken by jun at her place.

Actually i wanted to upload more pictures from my piink phone, but i have no idea why the bluetooth of the laptop suddenly stop working.

So there's only one photo of me.

My back view:

Seriously, the ge-tai downstairs, at the basketball court 150-200m away, hasn't improved over the years, i.e. still as bad.
Well, at least i get sounds to my ears, and parents are down there - appreciating what the committee has for us.
So things aren't that bad for me this evening, though i am very bored now.

My first econs tutorial is HILARIOUS~!
I seriously wonder how come there are people who really think OUT of the ~~box~~ economics.
Some people really have no economics sense.
There is this foreign accent guy who said question 2 is a joke.
If economics is the study of human behaviour, he is studying dinosaur behaviour.

Oh, for my birthday wishlist, its approximately done.
Just a preview:
1. Tons of friends (if you can get that)
2. Tons of boyfriends (that's even harder, gambatte cwarie)
3. A bimbotic laptop case (this is up to the BA to decide)
4. A keychain for my new set of keys
5. Tons of hello panda - pandaPOWER!
------End of preview------

Yesterday was the first time i introduced myself as Slowie in school.
He was having a hard time pronouncing my chinese name and couldn't remember it as well.
He asked for my name two days in a row.
An expert in jawa programming.
Anyway, even after i used Slowie, he also cannot pronounce.
But this time, he wrote it down.
I guess i have to change to an even simpler name.

I love pandaPOWER!

my 1st lab session

2009-08-21T08:25:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Mr. construction worker is so noisy

Just woke up, because of the construction works.

Its simply noise pollution.

Well, at least it makes me wake up early at 8am to play!

Yesterday, i had my first lab session FINALLY!

They had computer assigned to you, so people cannot seat with their cliques.

The lab is so freaking quiet and i was late.

The tutor of effective communications released me on time, so by the time i walked down, i was late!

Then the lab technicians didn't tell me the password.

I went to my computer and cried for help, "what's the password?"

The guy beside me told me its just "password".

So i kept typing password, it doesn't work.

Then the guy helped me to type.

Wth, its case-sensitive, and they had it with&without caps.

So when i was changing password, i had the same problem again.

Its seriously dumb.

And when i was doing the java, its even more cry-able.

Linux seriously had me crying - keep typing wrongly.

Welcome tea is tonight for astronomy club, i think i would join for fun.

Its not too much commitment, only every fortnightly.

Quite relaxing for me.

I hope to see you again soon.

Food poisoning again? o.o

2009-08-18T09:56:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Lao sai = food poisoning again?

Finally had a nice sleep last night.

I had a serious insomia the night before - same as rx.

Woke up with a serious stomachache.

And shitted like a lot of times.

Lucky today only have one lesson at 4.30pm, for one hour only. =.="

Yeah, i'm gonna spent 3+hours travelling back and forth, just for 1hour of ~~jawa~~ java lecture.

Coincidentally, my new friend is from the same secondary school as me, one year older.

Senpai-nisah - a nice senior from 4e1 too.

Went for the roadshow in school yesterday - for laptop.

Kind of cool, 'cuz they know how careless uni students like me can be, so most of the laptops are spill-resistant.

Lenovo even had something like a tap of water which keep flowing over the keyboard.

However, i'm in love with the "bimbotic" laptop from HP, RED!!

ok. more like maroon.

Anyway, thats the brightest laptop around.

Dad agreed to buy it for me, 'cuz its within budget and the specs is like one of the best in the roadshow.

My first personal laptop, buying on wednesday.

There's also a John Little bazaar sales next to the IT roadshow.

I bought a big can of hello panda at $5.80.

There's also kettle potato chips, selling much more than robinson's expo sales.

Oh, the P.C. bras are selling cheap at 10 bucks.

But i don't dare to buy with so many guys around.

I ended up eating my hello panda during econs lecture, and i got lost.

The lt went crazily noisy after only 1hr of listening to the lecture, while i was busy eating and not paying attention.

What is MU? MC? *dies.

I'm still working hard on my wishlist for my birthday.

My wishes came true for last year.

Dunnoo busy what?

2009-08-14T09:36:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Slept more than enough, FINALLY!

These few days, dunno me busy what, always so tired.

Busy going to school, busy talking to new friends, busy sweating, busy eating, busy surfing net, busy going to lectures, busy sleeping in lectures, busy going home.

Woke up at 6.30am yesterday - still not enough sleep.

Java lecture is like killer.

Application = applicat-shing.

Java = jawa ?? (island?)

File = VAIO ?? O_O ultimate. *salutes*

Don't ask me how long it takes for me to get his introduction chapter deciphered, the guys at the back kept laughing. at him or me?

Then we went to the supposedly-be-cancelled system lecture, just to check whether its cancelled.

Then we saw a lecturer there, so we thought its not cancelled.

*sat down* , *waited* , *saw slides* , The whole room started talking.

Why is it chemistry? O.O

Me: it looks like sec 1 chemistry to me -.-

The front row people turned back to stare at me.

Then a brave guy walked up with his timetable to talk to the lecturer, saying mr.lecturer walked in the wrong LT.

He asked us where is our lecturer, i wanted to say hospital, but i think better not.

Lecturer : Oh, so you all not bioengineering students?

*silence* -------------------------------------------- he left.

So we had 5+ hours break before the econs lecture.

The econs lecture group is a FREAKING BIGG GROUP!

LKC-LT is like twice of our LT4, and the seats were all taken up yesterday, some guys have to even sit on the floor. SCARY!~!!

Anyway, the lecturer is scarily fast.

He finished demand and supply in just merely 2 hours.

Of course, not as detailed as what we learnt in mj.

Where is my cetirus paribus? he kept, "keeping everything the same"

same what? - my friend asked.

i don't understand his example. - she asked again.

In short, he condensed the 1 month mj-speed into just 2 hours his-speed.

Today, i'm left with 1 hour of slacking at home, school starts at 2.30pm.

I'm loving it.

2 days at school

2009-08-12T17:41:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cloudy

Me: Tired

Its been 2 days since the start of school.

Things have been preetie good. (ever since sis taught me how to get a friend).

I've got more than one friend already.

Yesterday, i had lunch with gugu.

She introduced senpai-keith and senpai-cheryl to me.

He was a 1st class student.

And he taught me his friend's method to 1st class.

I must learn from him (its difficult though).

Anyway, i spent 1.5hours queuing for my notes yesterday.

Lucky i went to school early.

And the worst thing yesterday was, north south north south north.

I spent the whole afternoon walking all around the campus.

And i still can't find the popular (even though senpai gave me the exact "address").

Then i attended my one and only lesson of the day at 4.30pm.

Pathetic tuesday.

Went home with gugu - ty for the psp!

Today was worse than yesterday.

Woke up at 5am (i slept at 11pm, the night before) .

Because dad wanna send me to boon lay to take the feeder bus.

He had to send his friends to jurong island by 7am, so shun bian send me to boon lay.

But i reach boon lay at 7am (dad dropped me off 1st).

I reached school at about 7.20am.

Sorry friend - make you more late when you already late.

Then i camped at macs in school - watched potemayo! - till 8.15am.

Slept abit in math lecture and comm lecture.

After that, we just went home - pont the sys lecture, because he's hospitalised.

More than my age? o.o 4?

Late night Ouuuu-iiiiiieeeeee

2009-08-10T14:23:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Headache

Starting to suffer from some not-so-severe headache. *spins 7*

Slept at 4.55am this morning.

Woke up by a Prank call by meimei-hj.

She called me at 11am.

Hj : Who are you?
Me : da jiejie. *yawns*
Hj : No. You are fangfang
jiejie.
Me : No. *yawns* i am siyi
jiejie.
Hj : You are kh.
Me : *awakes* No. I am dadadadadada
jiejie.
Hj : *screams* you are fangfang
jiejie!
Me : NO! I am g.siyi!
Hj : No! You are g.Fangfang!
Me : Aiyo! i'm da jiejie la, i want to sleep
la. *pissed*
Hj : why your voice so
different?
Me : I was sleeping when you called.
-.-

Then she finally believed me.

I almost died debating with her.

My heart was like almost jumping out when i heard her saying KH~!!

That was mum's and sis's breakfast joke of the day, and they went back to sleep after the prank call..and they slept till now, still sleeping.

Last night, we spent the night watching "ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni".

Dylan is so shuai.

Then, we over-watch till 4.50am, and ended up waking up late today kenna pranked by meimei.

Yesterday was bad, spent the day at sembawang.

GrandauntS was ...

The whole thing started after i appeared.

First, it was on the dining table.

Paul, girl, paul, girl, me.

Uni uni uni.

Thank goodness he's in NS now.

Mum was going all over about how lucky i am. Yeah yeah.

The girl isn't in the same generation as me, as well as era!

Then my youngest grandaunt started "HEIGHT" thingy after meal, when i was solo-ing the longans.

She walked up to her pet, Jun.

"Wow, you grew taller, i thought you would never grow again."

Hui's feeling indignant, so she said she's taller than Jun.

I saw this and i knew something was gonna to happen, so i went to hide in the toilet.

The moment i stood up, Hui said, "at least i'm taller than siyi."

Zzz... So i hid in the toilet until the whole topic was over.

Seriously, the whole family gathering thingy was out to ridicule me - 18 years.

Haiz... Jun's and Hui's market is so good.

At least there's demand.

I AM A PUBLIC GOOD!!!

School is starting tomorrow.

I hope i don't get lost there and i can carry all my books on my own.

I don't need a man - just for carrying books and making sure i don't get lost.

My last day playing py.

Take anything you want.

Still clearing my stuffs

2009-08-06T11:15:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy + a tinge of sunny

Me: Panting

Just cleared out 1/6 of the pathetic small cupboard and i am already panting.

I seriously wonder how i managed to squeeze so many files in there?

The overloaded physics file, the mathematics fileS, my binded notes and the *lost* notes.

Don't ask me how i pull them out and dump them.

I just did it - poor rubbish man.

And i found that pair of earrings he gave me - gomenasai, still no ear holes, but i love them.

I lost my keys, i realised it only yesterday.

2 possibilities : acidentally threw them away together with the rubbish notes OR i flushed it into the toilet bowl when i was washing the bags in the toilet.

Last night, the mozzies attacked me again.

Then i started wrapping myself up - banditto-looking me.

*stares at the scars*

Yesterday i went to the NTU freshman welcome ceremony.

It was the usual entertaining speeches.

I have to salute my lately-learned DAO-ness.

When the babysitter talked to me, i jitao DAO-ed until py have to answer - 3 min later.

Kudos to Audrey and Esther too - we did it together.

The free gifts are WOW.

Size L, XL ...

In the end, i went home with L and XL bags - my bag grew o.O

I tried making A new friend at the school orientation and i blew it.

Was i wrong? T.T its so depressing.

When i told mum, dad and sis, they laughed at my stupidity.

But seriously, i think there's 2 other possibilities to my failure.

1. She has attitude problems.

2. She doesn't get my english.

Can i have a friend? o.O

Oh. During the school orientation, they kept emphasizing on computer addiction.

Hahs, my opinion is that they are afraid of the incident last year.

No worries for me, i hate maple.

And its boring to play pangya all the time.

However, i love bridge! Ooops.

99times - I love him.

Love that song.

Packing in progress

2009-08-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Gonna faint soon

For the past 2 hours, i've been packing my room's TABLE.

Its only a freaking small computer table stuffed with tons of old stuffs.

Actually, it was mum who purposely stuffed it so that i'll clear it.

I was sneezing and sneezing half the time through.

Dusty is the word to use.

Thick thick layers of dust, on the items as well as the table.

So i wiped the items and table.

At one moment, i got so lazy that i threw all the bags, soft toys and wallets into the pail for a mega-bath.

Then i realised, my emo bag has got mentos in it~!!

I found some stuffs.

A brand new unused tampines sec exercise book.

Breezer opener.

Comb aka toothBRUSH.

Now the table looks sparkling clean, that's because i moved the stuffs to the top of the cupboard.

LOL. So the task tomorrow is to clear the cupboard, which contains my JC notes, then i can put the stuffs in.

Suddenly, it feels like CNY~!!

Because i'm doing cleaning.

Autumn cleaning. xD

I can live without memories.

Stucked up

2009-08-01T11:03:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Stucked up with stuffs to complete

Recently, i've been trying to make a gift for him.

Took some photos of where we used to be 1x years back.

And yeah, the first time i passed by that place on bus 72, i had a strong feeling that that must be it.

However, i took 2 years to finally confirm my gut feelings about that place.

The playground is different, but the market is the same.

The timetable came yesterday.

Thanks Audrey for telling me that the exam dates are out too.

Gonna study econs again in my life T.T how much do i exactly dislike econs?

Answer is ALOT~$%^&*^&*

The great thing about it is, OMG~!! There is maths!!!

And i'll be having 2 afternoon papers on the same day, math + econ = GG??

Its more like afternoon and evening paper. LOL

Hell yeah, next time boey's comp spoils, i can fix it for him!!

But i will make him pay.

The uncle must be shocked - $110.

Sorry meimei - $7

Btw, the 30k acash card is nice, can i keep it?

Meimei wants it.

Ivan - as usual - hurt someone.

This time, 35 stitches to the guy (i can't call him a victim, because i don't know who started the fight.)

Apparently, he was expelled for that.

Luckily he don't beat up girls, if not, i would be among the top 10 whom he would beat up.

Anyway, thanks for comforting my slowness.

Who is the one going around saying i have a new boyfriend?!

Please admit it - boey told me - someone.

Overcooked fish

2009-07-30T11:47:00.003+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Overcooked

I managed to overcook my fish just by reading DD's posts.

Well, i was steaming the fish to kill my time while waiting for py maintenance to complete.

AND to kill my time for waiting the fish to be cooked, i read DD's posts.

So it was like killing two birds with one stone.

BUT i overcooked the fish in the end - dry and sticky.

So now imma push the blame to DD.

Dear DD,
Your posts are getting more interesting and long. I spent
alot of my time reading it, such that my fish is overcooked! Nevertheless, I
enjoy reading it.
Love, DD.

LOL, the letter is a joke.

DD, don't sad and i meant it when I say I enjoy reading it.

PY ~ T.T

Last night, it was torturous.

The pain in my abdo and knees - it hurts so much that I couldn't sleep.

I had to hug StarrY~ the way Nodo holds it.

Perhaps i fell asleep because i have no more energy to fight the pain.

Kooh ~ mooh

Debut

2009-07-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Down-ed

The new blog song is sang by me, SLOWIE!!

Apparently, its my debut and it sounds quite awful.

I really hope that i can get better softwares and instruments for it.

This is made with the simplest of all instruments - microphone.

Anyway, i'm glad that Jay really likes it and he's asking for more!

The supper sucks.

Yellow.Eggy.Mee - i hate the eggy smell in the mee.

*Pukes*

Take care.

Fault me

2009-07-26T19:32:00.003+08:00

Weather: Stale air

Me: My fault?

It has been really unfair.

Are they really trying to put me to death?

My fault for her over-playing?

My fault for a dirty table?

Is it my responsibility to clean the table?

My fault for her staying out? Her defiance?

Why do i have to put up with her black face and be her scapegoat?

*stabs*

I like that skirt, but i have nothing to do with it.

Not anymore.

*thinks* + *cuts*

Rob

2009-07-25T22:13:00.002+08:00

Weather: Hot

Me: Sad

ROB!

You robbed me of my love, now my friendship.

I hate you.

*hibernates*

New friend

2009-07-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Tired

Today, i did nothing, but play, watch anime, and make present for my new taiwan friend.

I recorded a song for him.

Somehow, i think its only 90 upon 100.

Its the first time someone praised my singing in chinese words which i hardly understand.

My play-pal.

Did some walking-around at tampines today again.

I saw her again.

Its two days in a row.

I didn't walk up and say hi, because i was with mum.

Maybe i just don't want to be reminded of the video.

~Ni de wei xiao

Nice boyfriend

2009-07-23T17:34:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sunny as ever. ^^

Me: High on music

Met nini just now, to buy his girlfriend a pair of shorts. *anti-climax*

He was too paiseh to go alone.

Well, he's a nice guy who will help gf to deliver clothes.

Perhaps too nice. *scary*

He was abit irritated by her, so i *drinks bubble tea and ignores*

That was the best i can do to not get him notice my existence, but well, he noticed.

Is there a rollback on py?

I finished the 2p 18h game JUST before the server maintenance.

Prolly, 2 minutes before..or 1 minute.

That was the fastest game i've ever played.

1st hole :

Notice: The server will start its maintenance in 47 minutes time. *blah*

17th hole:

Notice: The server will start its maintenance in 7 minutes time. *blah*

There goes my boosters. *hurrays*

~Ba ai chuan chu lai

Eclipse

2009-07-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Empty stomach, forever.

Oh my, i just realised, i forgot to cut my fringe again.

That's like 2 weeks in a row, i guess.

Talked to his mum yesterday and her.

Seems like there's some misunderstandings and wilfulness involved.

I should not get involve in these stuffs. *siams*

Why are most guys so forceful in their own ways?

What he did yesterday was so forceful that it reminds me of you.

But at least this shows that he cared for her so much more than anything else.

Today, i have to thank yuwen for reminding me about the eclipse thingy.

I forgot all about it as i was panicking about my forgotten hp number.

Anyway, it was spectacular. Green, Purple!

Cherish the person who cares about you more than anything else.

Mine's gone...

New Blogskin and Song

2009-07-21T12:35:00.004+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Hungry

In an attempt to keep my blog alive and moving, i've decided to change the blogskin.

This time, the new song is SLOW!

I meant the song title though.

I found this song while surfing for nice anime to watch, and apparently the anime is nice too.

That guy is so DAZZLING!!

He looks more like the Edward Cullen i have in my mind - the perfect body.

Think i'll change the cbox colours later too.

The BA and my cbox colours really don't match the skins.

Haiz...

It feels like i'm suffering from cold feet.

BA is back alive!

2009-07-20T10:04:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: DC-ed

Great news!

The BA blog is back alive.

New look by me! Gathering by me!

Please do take a look and give me comments about it.

Most importantly, please vote for the date you prefer for the stayover.

PS: I'm honing my bridge skills now everyday with yuyu (new friend). Don't blame me if i own!! Wahaha!

Last night, curry leaves killed me.

I was clenching my teeth and fists for the whole night.

Your words...drowned me.

Maybe you didn't realise how much those words meant to me.

Now i know why you don't want to choose me.
Stealth-mode myself*

No life

2009-07-18T21:51:00.003+08:00

Weather: Hot, as usual

Me: Viwawa-ed whole day

Seriously, today is a no-lifer day.

Anime-ed, 18-holed with keke, then leftover time is viwawa.

Yuyu pei-ed me the whole day.

He taught me games which i never tried before.

Even though its not that fun, i guess its okay for me to spend a day only to play.

Last night, it was torturous with that kind of nightmare.

The pain...beyond description.

Happy Birthday KEKE!

Condolences to DD.

School =X sucks

2009-07-16T09:14:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me:Baby I'm sorry -ing

Just woke up with a weird dream:

I was in a school. There are alot of weird teachers around.

And as usual, I'm a rule-breaker, but this time more obvious.

Once, I was caught by a bitchy teacher who caught me climbing on the staircase's railings.

She asked me to get down immediately, I refused.

She threatened to call the discipline master, Mr. Wong.

I *begged* her to call.

When she was calling, I was done with my climbing.

And to my surprise, Wong did not picked up her call.

Well, then I told her, "next time don't so stupid, use your handphone to take photo la, call so slow.. See? I finish with my climbing ler, and you have no evidence against me. BAKA! HAHAHA!"

At the same time, an old lady teacher and two girls walked past, they laughed at what i said.

The bitchy teacher was literally fuming.

I said, "bye!" and ran away.

Another incident was with Ouyong in the school field.

Ouyong was the sports HOD.

He saw me kicking a freaking small ball in the field. (Apparently, i was serving my punishment back in the field for what i did to the bitchy teacher and i was having fun with the ball some other students left behind.)

Then Ouyong walked over and told me that he wants to start a female soccer team and he wants me to join.

I thought he must be kidding, because i am still as slow (even in my dreams) and i hate running.

I rejected the offer.

Then he started kicking the small ball around, and asked me to play with him.

Of course, I am no match to his speed.

Once, he slipped and fell, I thought his head was the ball, and i kicked it.

Ouyong screamed.

The last incident was during the movie marathon.

The staff had their own movie theater and the students had another.

The old lady teacher was supposed to give out the tickets.

So she gave me mine when i reached the cinema.

She gave me the staff theater's ticket.

I didn't know until i see other students' tickets.

Before I went in, i thought about it, maybe i should run away, just in case bitch, Wong and Ouyong are gonna to have me *dead* this time.

But i still went in after i buy food, and i did the Follow-the-crowd thing.

I followed the student population.

Apparently, i couldn't find the theater 1 which the staffs are supposed to sit too.

Thankfully, there were extra seats in the theater, so i don't have to sit on the floor.

After the movie, I walked out and saw Ouyong, he said that was a good kick and wanna me to join the team.

THE END! because my alarm rang.

-----------------------------------------------------------

Had lunch with DD yesterday at BBQ Chicken.

Me had Jerk BBQ, I like Jerks!

And DD had hot hot drum, I guessed its really spicy. *looks at the sauce*

Then we went shopping and she found my absolute husband.

Guess what is it? I'm not telling anyone till she pass it to me on my birthday!

Bought BB-Princess a storybook about toilet-bowls.

Apparently, that's my first impression of the book.

High on anime again.

Listen and sing

2009-07-15T08:51:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cloudy and cold

Me: Not having breakfast today.

Facing some connection problems with farm town on facebook now, so i just pop in and blog a few lines about my not-so-complicated life.

Seriously, my music is not loading too.

Bad weather + constructions = bad connection.

Anyway, i solved the math question in my dreams.

Q: The sum of base-10 logarithms of
the divisors of 10^n is 792. What is n?

All those who took a-math sure can do.

I stared at this question for the past few days, finally solved it.

Just pure english.

I should've listen to nini and kw, just sing~!

Kbox, anyone?

Medical checkup

2009-07-14T15:51:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: *yawns*

My medical checkup today was an adventure.

1. I got down at the wrong bus stop.

2. I decided to follow the crowd (actually only one girl), but i lost her halfway because i was sms-ing. Anyway, its the wrong building.

3. I was officially lost, so i decided to continue walking down the road, although its uphill.

4. I was at the wrong spine. I was at north and the medical centre is at south spine.

5. I took more than 2 hours to get to a medical centre and ended up waiting for 1hr++ for my pathetic less than 10 minutes checkup.

6. On my way home, out of curiousity, i went to try finding a bridge (which aunt mentioned before) which can lead to pioneer mrt station.

7. I got lost again and i ended up seeing stuffs which i never wanna see on a rooftop.

8. Lunch-ing alone with alot of lonely souls in LJS.

For more details, ask me personally =X

Bad experience.

After you made your choice, then find me.

Fresh

2009-07-12T09:50:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool

Me: Woke up feeling fresh again.

Last night, it rained and i forgot to breathe.

Soon, the nose was all blocked.

Why? Why must you lift me up and push me down everytime?

The towel of tears was drench by the rain.

3...2...1...poof...

Its becoming a habit.

Every night of being alone in my pathetic room, i'd cry.

Tears are used to forget what happened on that day and to welcome the next day.

I can't afford to make people feel sad, so i have to smile everyday.

Just like what she used to ask me.

He used the words, "BU YAO".

I broke down.

Happier.

2009-07-11T11:12:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sunny
Me: Happy

The first time i slept just like that in a very long time.
Maybe i was tired enough for a good sleep in the coffin, which makes me wake up with muscle aches.

Maybe its Cwarie, Nini, Ck, You or everyone.
I feel happier.
To receive an sms from Cwarie this morning about the dinner may be a failure, i feel relieved for my pocket.
Nini talking to me on msn this morning makes me feel like i still have a good friend around me.
I met Ck last night outside Q-bread last night, he looks BIG now! Stop selling your son to me, auntie. Jkjk! xD
You came over to my rescue yesterday. I feel happy that you came over, even though you're sick.

I heard...

SGM?

2009-07-10T09:39:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Pissed

Felt freaking pissed off with the so-called GM.

Aren't SGMs supposed to be friendly, knowledgeable and willing-to-help?

What am i supposed to do now?

I can't zak.

Oh yeah, esther ignored me for dinner.

I just realised this morning, i missed my medical checkup date.

How?

I really forgot all about it, until gv reminded me on tuesday.

My bad, for indulging in too much gaming and work life.

Looking for a new server.

New life cum short life

2009-07-09T09:50:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Bored out.

Recently, i've been working on invigilation job.

A super boring job.

At least i get to enjoy to see how my juniors fail chemistry like how i used to fail.

For biology, i catch no balls of it, BUT it looks easy.

Because, for the essay, if you memorise, sure can do it de.

Biology needs lots of writing in english.

Oh, i hate it.

Luckily i didn't take it.

Now, pronounced as jobless.

But i've been hiding in a private server.

No funny rates, no funny people, no funny gm-es.

Just me and my sis and leveling.

I like it when there is no one.

I hate it when the gm finds us.

I suck at spamming.

Happy birthday to you.

2009-07-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

Weather: Drizzling

Me: It merely rained like the rain outside that of my window.

I'm sorry.

I screwed things up again.

Happy birthday and enjoy that bottle of drink in your fridge.

It looks like i'm good at making life miserable for myself and others.

Today, misery drowned me, or was it the rain?

Walked home, in the rain.

Nothing look the same to me, nothing look different too.

Half of me says i have to wait, wait for miracle.

The other half says i have to run.

Stress + tiring

2009-07-03T09:49:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool

Me: Tired

This job is getting abit tiring on me.

Freaking stress up.

I dreamt about fitting room again - the place & customers.

Yesterday, something serious happened.

XiaoQuan caught me working at expo! ARGH.

Felt so shocked when i received his call.

Then, next thing which happened was, he is there queuing for the men's fitting room.

Luckily i'm hiding at the ladies side. (:

Anyway, i don't get it why people like to challenge the rules?

Maximum 5 pieces.

Customer : Can one more? Please? I very fast de.

Me : *nags* One piece = another 2 minutes. You see behind? The queue so long. If everyone tells me 1 more piece, then the queue will get longer and longer and longer. Because 1 person 1 piece will delay everyone by 2 minutes. So if 10 people tell me one more piece, the other customers queuing up will have to wait 20 minutes more. *blah blah blah* So later you come out and queue again, can?

Customer : Okay la. I put this here. Later i come back queue again.

I guess every of us have our own ways to stop people to bring in more than 5 pieces of clothes.

What auntie amy did was to pretend to let them pass, but in the end, did not.

Customer : Can let me bring in six anot? Very fast one.

Amy : Aiya, i wanted to let you go in with 6 de. Now you say so loud, behind the people hear it, how i let you go in with six? Later they complain leh. Later you come out and queue again la.

I like auntie amy.

She is so funny and good to everyone.

That day, there were a few girls in the fitting room area, GATHERING!

I couldn't get them to move out.

She managed to use snide remarks to kindly make them not to gather there.

A horrifying thought struck me as i looked at the car keys.

Shopping spree

2009-07-02T09:23:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Stress

Yesterday is a long day for me.

Went shopping with DD.

Bought one pair of Espirit jeans, a mini-skirt, a t-shirt, a box and an eyeliner.

DD bought less, but she got something she really wanted - GOODBYE KITTY!

In the end, i ended up spending ~$90 just inside expo.

Byes to my 2-day salary.

We had lunch in the foodcourt, 'coz the subway was having a super long queue, and i had subway on monday ler.

Work was tiring, only me and pick-jie on duty last night.

So much stress.

Reason : There is not enough people to form a queue. So most people took the "shortcut" in. Worst of all, sometimes they walk too fast to be stopped and given a number tag.

Another reason shall not be mentioned.

I don't want to hurt your heart like this.

Adore

2009-07-01T08:49:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cloudy

Me: Stomachache, as usual.

--------------------------------------------------------

I don't mean to run

But Everytime You come Around

I Feel more alive, than ever

And I guess it's too much

Maybe we're too young

And I don't even know whats real

But I Know I've never..

Wanted anything so bad

I've never wanted anyone so bad

If I let you love me

Be the one I adore

Would you go all the way

Be the one I'm looking for

If i let you love me (If i Say)

Be the one I adore (Its O.k)

Would you go all the way (You can Stay)

Be the One I'm looking for

Help me come back down

From high above the clouds

You know im suffocating,

But i blame this town

Why do I deny

The things that burn inside,

Down deep I'm barely breathing

But you just see a smile

And I don't wanna let this go

Really i just want to know

------------------------------------------------------------------

Finally, i get to do some shopping today at my own workplace - with DD!

I feel abit sick now.

Woke up with a serious stomachache.

Lesson learnt - NEVER DRINK BEFORE SLEEP!!

I guess drinking makes one more sad.

But i drink to numb the pain of my 3 ulcers, why do i feel sad?

This beat is sick.

Actually...

2009-06-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Thinking of what to eat for lunch.

Initially, i thought of giving in.

All of a sudden, my brain says "no".

Reason: Priority, afraid, uncertainty, etc.

I wish there aren't complications involved, but life is not always that simple.

Its like a surgery i'm going through.

Feels like i'm using a cursed scroll in maple.

And it looks like i'm taking a shot in pangya.

I wish i'm living in the caveman era. Flintstone rocks.

Back to work later. Sad.

I wanna be strong enough, courageous enough for work.

I'm still scared of facing aunties.

Off day

2009-06-29T10:05:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Un-talk-able + un-walk-able

Feeling much better today - mentally.

Recently, its been too tiring on my small physical body and my big brain.

Work stress, politics in particular, has gotten all over me.

In my dreams, i was also in the fitting room area.

Work is not tough exactly, just the long hour of standing that seriously kills us.

For me, there's also another thing which is killing me - ulcers.

There's two in my pathetic mouth, one of which is on my tongue.

This makes me can't talk properly.

Had -25 for Piink Wind tourney today - SILVER!

Twinnie feather + Kooh = Siao ah!

I broke my PYsea record again.

Still noob. Cheers.

Its not over - 6 more days.

1st day at work

2009-06-26T09:09:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Leg breaking.

Yesterday was the first day of my new job at expo.

Of course, thats also the first day of the expo sales.

Thank goodness its thursday, the crowd isn't that scary.

But it was still a typical screwed up day for me.

Firstly, it was me walking to the wrong entrance and ended up being late for work.

Secondly, i punched the card wrongly.

Thirdly, my duty roster was seriously screwed for yesterday, so i have to work from 11am to 10.30pm yesterday.

Fourthly, i lost alot of number tags. I'm sorry. T.T How am i supposed to take care of so many customers alone? Kudos to Pick-jie.

I think there's also some fitting-room jokes, which either i don't remember or not to be memtioned here.

But i was lucky to met some nice new friends yesterday.

Firstly, it was seniors. I love the seniors - they are older and more experienced, most importantly, they are friendly.

Secondly, the customers. Nice and friendly customers. One shuai-ge served yesterday, another one spotted.

Thirdly, the positive, negative and neutral. Sorry, i don't know their name. I only know negative is a-MAN-da. Positive talked to me during dinner, because i was alone. She introduced negative, because negative's a computer science student too. They are funny. I like them. I just keep laughing at them.

Please buy me dinner tonight.
I'm lazy to walk to food-fare to makan ler.
My pathetic pair of leggies are rotting.

Stomachache again

2009-06-22T08:32:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cooling

Me: Stomachache again

I had BBQ again last night.

And lao-sai too.

The chicky wings are not fully cooked again.

I feel so weak - one 80% cooked drumlet is enough to make me stomachache for days.

Was i tired or suffering from a headache?

My head felt so much like dropping down and go into deep ~~sleep~~ coma.

These few days, there's too many things for me to think about, too many factors to consider.

Let's hope the story of slowerella do happen.

Finally a new playlist - enjoy singing. ^^

Bbq-sick

2009-06-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Stomachache

Jacob is back.

Finally i get to see him.

I told him about Greg. Honest me.

He was sad but for awhile.

I came back from the class bbq - feeling sick.

Stomachache + lao sai.

So clever of me spending 12bucks to get stomachache.

I feel sad for korkor. I feel sad for myself.

He didn't ask me out for lunch yesterday. (Even though i might just reject him, but its a courtesy to ask~!)

He broke with his girlfriend 2weeks ago, just like that.

I feel like crying just now when he was emo-ing.

Sad me - forgotten.

Why do i feel that way?

If i didn't change...

2009-06-15T22:21:00.005+08:00

Weather: Windy

Me: Don't feel like talking.

I'm sorry.

Its my fault for the lost of words, my fault for poor english, my fault for misinterpreting your words, my fault for not independent enough, my fault for not being strong again, my fault for relying on people.

Its all my fault.

Maybe its time to go again, after i've done what i need to do.

Runaway as what i used to do.

Thanks for talking to me.

Let me reminisce what is sweet to me.

I'll leave them behind.

Argh.

2009-06-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cool

Me: Angry, but more sad.

I don't get it.

Are my words not clear enough? Or are they not important to you?

Yes, i am selfish.

I don't want poeple to know about my-map.

I share information with you because you're my friend.

I don't like other people to know what i tell you.

Why? Why must you keep telling people that you're there killing that? Why must you tell them you have a ringer? Why must you tell them you're earning 1k+ exp per mob?

I feel that its unfair to me.

I took the effort to do my research on the maps and mobs, till i found this.

But, what you simply did was to tell others how *good* it is?

I don't care about what others think or what they say.

I only care about myself.

You made me sad.

Friday woes

2009-06-12T20:18:00.002+08:00

Weather: Warm

Me: T.T

Woke up at 6am today to bring sis to the dental place.

Apparently, we're still late today.

Slowness runs in the family blood.

Slept at the waiting area for 1hr+.

Phone rang and rang, but i didn't realise.

Sorry.

Had lunch with DD, paul, mum and sis.

IT fair was crowded.

It feels like saturday.

Walked till halfway, i feel so tired that i started yawning.

Thanks for the Dark-dark-coffee.

The timetable is here.

Feel like dying - seeing them soon.

Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that their goal

Is to keep me from falling

Tell me.

2009-06-10T08:51:00.002+08:00

Weather: Ever so sunny

Me: Watery brain

Just woke up.

Purposedly woke up late to patch.

Who knows, the patch is up since 7.50am?

Expected late patch time.

But never mind. I like early.

Had lunch with sister yesterday.

I saw SecondLast and he joined us for lunch, 'cuz there is no more seats available.

When his mum was buying food, sis ran away.

So i'm kinda stucked with him and his mum.

His mum - him : Ta ye shi 13 sui ?
Him - mum : Bu shi . Ta hao xiang shi 18 sui .
His mum - me : Ni 18 sui ?
Me - his mum : uh dui . wo 18 sui .

We had dinner at ikea last evening.

Had ice-cream from ikea.

Not caremel anymore!! Its vanilla!!

Then we went giant to do some window shopping.

Mum decided to take a look at the exam papers.

The vendor asked, "She sec what?"

We ignored, then they keep insist.

Mum bo bian, she did that to shut their mouths.

Mum : Graduated le.

They : JC what?

Mum : Graduated le.

They : *exclaims* wei she mo wo kan bu chu lai ?! !^&*()

Then, they gave up on me. *proceeds to sis*

Before they asked, sis showed her finger.

Amazingly, they understood.

But in the end, we still didn't buy a thing.

Am i really too indecisive?

Truth?

2009-06-08T08:52:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Enjoying music

I don't know what's happening. I don't want to know too?

I just know that there are innocent people involved.

And i think he's angry with me.

Because i told him the truth (not so blatantly though.)

No doubt that his english is good to read between the lines? Or maybe, my english is bad enough that it looks so obvious?

I choose to believe my friends, just like that.

Jun gave me the shock of my life.

I have never seen so many U grades in my life, until ...

Hui too.

The highest in her class for mathematics was 33/100.

And she got 24/100. What a disgrace?

At least Jun got me a grade 2 for mathematics, Hui gave me E grade.

Anyway, i had my time laughing at her class.

Late Congratulations to Geek on engagement~!

He's getting married soon, in real life.

He looks kind of like nini and `[._.]`Nini~.

With the smirk, he looks like nini.

Without the smirk, he looks like `[._.]`Nini~.

Also, Late Congratulations to DD on attaining level 120~!

Work harder on genesis, then can spam me~!

Selfish me. xD

Tomorrow, i'll be down for training.

Actually, i don't know where.

So if i miss it, then forget it.

Jacob is so going to get me when he's back and realises that i have Greg.

Groggy

2009-06-04T09:41:00.003+08:00

Weather: Cool

Me: Luan

What is the date today? Day?

I was shocked to receive sms from Cwarie this morning, about meeting the girls tonight.

Then i suddenly realised, today is thursday!

That was not the end.

I on-ed msn and checked my inbox. (Finally i am checking it for a very long time.)

I almost fainted.

Chia needs me on 2 specifc days which i'm working on another job too.

GG-fied.

The worst is, i have to appear in her office by 5pm tomorrow.

Too many things to do.

2 days in genting

2009-06-02T15:35:00.002+08:00

Weather: Misty and cold

Me: Rotting in starbucks

It wasn't exactly brilliant of us coming to Genting.

Considering the fact that sis got sick right before we got on the bus, it was misfortune - for me, at least.

I have to take care of her when the others are losing their money in the casino.

Wi-Fi slowness experienced in free wi-fi regions.

At least i get to watch movie on a OSIM massage chair, for less than 8 bucks sing dollars.

Lets hope mum will let us watch movie at 1.30am again tonight.

Monsters vs aliens or aliens vs monsters? Whichever.

The japanese meal we had for lunch today was horribly awful.

But i was glad with all other meals we had so far.

The hotel room is fabulous.

I love the bathtub - just nice for my height.

The bathroom is sexy.

I miss you.

Out of town

2009-05-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Watching tv

The bluetooth is not working well now.

Can't upload the photos yet.

I lied too.

But i didn't mean it.

I don't want to hurt anyone, especially him and him.

Sorry - rejections.

The movie was not-bad last night - terminator salvation.

The SHSS guys are still not sociable to us.

I will be out of town tmr night.
Till wednesday night.
Sms me - at your phone bill's risk.

Lost

2009-05-28T09:46:00.003+08:00

Weather: Awfully nice

Me: Sians

1st game of the day, i lost.

18h pw: -12 vs -7.

I lost to a noob br player.

In the end, he dc-ed.

Sometimes, i don't know how to tell people that i don't like things this way or that way.

Eg.: Breakfast.

I don't know how to tell mum that i don't like apricot jam with bread.

Yeye bought the jam.

I tried telling her.

Either she didn't get it, or she ignored it.

Am i supposed to put everything in the most straightforward way?

Whenever i beat around the bush, everyone gets lost.

I didn't cry last night.

2009-05-27T08:42:00.002+08:00

Weather: Cooling

Me: In pain

Woke up with lots of stuffs on my mind - things which i have to complete by the end of today.

So i started with the first - accepting the university offer.

I tried to log in, but failed.

Because i copied the wrong application number!

Lucky the letter did print it for me.

Almost killed myself.

Last night, i lost control of myself.

Just keep crying.

Lost 200ml of tears.

Its so hard to make my brain control my heart 24/7.

The pain on both of my legs are nothing compared to what's inside.

last night

2009-05-25T08:28:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sweet

Me: Feeling more awake now

I had karaoke and bbq session yesterday.

Greatest joke :

While i was singing yue-guang,

Mum - aunt : Can you off the vocal of the
singer? I can't hear my nu-er singing.
Aunt -mum : Its siyi singing
leh.
Aunt - me : You are the one singing,
right?
Me : *boxes mum* -.-

Then aunt laughed at mum the whole night, and she told the whole family, including him.

I was stupid to choose that as the 1st song - ended up tearing.

But it was a nice warm up.

Then i tio sabo-ed on solo-ing SHE's song.

I love their ballads, easier to sing solo.

Bbq was nice.

I was so afraid that he'd bring her along.

I don't want her to be there.

Too tall to be seen by me.

Oh-My-Future-Da-Sao.

Study benches are still as nice to sleep on.

Crawl-athon xD

2009-05-24T12:22:00.002+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Tired. Jiao Suan.

Marathon at ECP this morning.

Walk-ed 7.5km, instead of 5km.

'Cuz i walked to take bus 31, took the macs-underpass, then walk all the way to angsana green.

Though we cheated abit for the walk, i still feel tired.

Muscles cramp-ed.

I made bah zhang yesterday.

The first time i made bah zhang in 18years of my pathetic life.

Looks weird. And water went in.

Slow - 12 made in 1.5hrs

Please stop wa ku me.

I know he dumped me, stop reminding me.

Left-hand-happiness

2009-05-23T07:23:00.003+08:00

Weather: Sunny

Me: Again ~ Tears

I woke up with tears again.

Left hand - i will severe it when i have no use for it anymore.

For now, its brain over heart.

I won't severe it - for now.

Is happiness so simple?

I saw the smiles, i felt the true happiness in them.

Will that last?

At least they are happy for that moment.

Fun-laughter-peace-and-joy.

I did that, to give as many of those to people i care.

Feel like buying a bikini.

It takes abit of courage to wear it.

Improvement in figure. xD

AiNi

2009-05-21T09:34:00.002+08:00

Weather: Nice

Me: Singing~Lalala

Maple and Py are down till 10+am.

I think it'll be 11am when we can start using those games.

So i went to mop the floor.

Lazy me, finally mop the floor after 2 weeks.

Don't ask me how black the water looks like.

I manage to tangle the mop's 'hair'.

Mum's gonna get me for this.

Cwarie reminded me something.

I need a bag!

Is there anyone rich enough to get me a decent bag?

Jk. I just need someone pei me do the shopping and give me useful opinions though.

Maybe new clothes shopping too?

I need at least 5 pairs of jeans too.

Oh~ baby, qin hua duo shuo yi dian.

Ever-so-crowded bus

2009-05-20T06:58:00.003+08:00

Weather: Still abit dark, but generally nice.

Me: Woke up with tears

Yesterday, i had my star trek with DD.

Nice.

But Geek wasn't right, he said it was funny. Very funny.

I expected a comedy. LOL.

Anyway, would anyone be free to take me on the Night at the Museum 2 soon?

Its opening this thursday.

On the way home, i cried on the bus.

My eyes. Why are they always seeing the wrong things?

The interaction between biology and physics.

The people who walk/run, the *things* which fly and land with ever-explainable physics theory and the grass which are being trampled on.

This magnificant interaction made me realise how much i still do not understand, and how much i don't fit into this world.

Then, i realise its just perspective.

If i look at the objects on its own, i can try to understand more.

I held my tears back again.

I told myself, "my eyes are playing with me again."

I woke up with tears.

I can't say it out loud, things which would hurt him.

How much do i miss those days of happiness?

Gone.

Scarlion version of Keep Holding On

2009-05-18T21:18:00.003+08:00

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll heal your health
When the boss down
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
except loot the helm
oh we will loot it

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay up there
'Cause you know I'll fight for you, I'll fight for you
There's nothing we could say
Nothing we could do
There's no other way when it comes to the fight
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So long hp
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, quan would become panda
Before scarlion dies
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay up there
'Cause you know I'll fight for you, I'll fight for you
There's nothing we could say
Nothing we could do
There's no other way when it comes to the fight
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change what we want
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay up there
'Cause you know I'll fight for you, I'll fight for you
There's nothing we could say
Nothing we could do
There's no other way when it comes to the fight
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing we could say
Nothing we could do
There's no other way when it comes to the fight
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll get the helm, we'll get the helm

Hmm. Welcome Yazi.

2009-05-18T19:38:00.002+08:00

Weather: Hot

Me: Feverish

Have i driven her nuts?

She said those words to me.

No. I don't have the intention of snatching her boyfriend.

From now on, maybe i should keep a distance from him.

I don't want her to be feeling how i used to feel.

No. She is not jealous.

I am not preetie enough to make her feel jealous.

The interview was okay.

'Cuz she only asked one question.

Hooray ! to jobless soul.

I couldn't stop laughing.

Not guilty anymore.

2009-05-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

Weather: Opposite of sunny, but still hot

Me: Sleepy

Yazi is keeping me awake with her tricks.

What's up her sleeves?

SIYI. siyi siyi siyi.

Sorry that i played with you.

DD says her pi qi guai guai de. I agree.

Actually i was feeling guilty about it.

But then, now i don't.

Cuz i'm ... unexplain-able.

Almost died of anger in dreamland last night.

And the worst thing was : the numbers strike 4D~!!

Mum almost killed me.

Cuz i stopped her from buying this morning/afternoon.

iBet.

Logging off soon.

2009-05-16T08:54:00.002+08:00

Weather: Fairly cool for a morning

Me: Hungry

An idea struck me last night, before i entered dreamland.

Edited version of Keep Holding On?!

Hehe. Sing the lyrics down there.

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side, you know I'll heal your hp

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't just die

No I won't just die

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay up there

'Cause you know I'll fight for you, I'll fight for you

There's nothing we could say

Nothing we could do

There's no other way when it comes to the fight

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

I think the 1st part would do.

No time for 2nd part now.

I supposed you can guess what its talking about =x

Got to go bathe and go out to meet DD and Paul.

2009-05-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

Weather: Dark

Me: Tired

He came to crash sis's early dinner just now.

We talked about some stuffs.

He's sad, 'cuz he lost to me in physics.

I'm sad, because of that 2.5points.

Not because i lost to him by 2.5, but that.

Argh. Yuna-san, baddie.

He didn't believe i got a B for physics, though i don't believe it either?!

Chiong-ed level maple for the day.

Morning + afternoon, just for welcoming death tonight.

G1 bronze for me - from GM's room.

So sorry for jerr - 7th. (2xxx pangs)

Me - 6th (3xxx pangs)

If its a 30min game, i may have a silver?

And he'll have a bronze?

Argh to slow players. I despise players who are slower than me.

90second still can timeout?

Calculate for 2min, still can miss the hole?

Disgrace to calculator users =X

How am i suppose to face the sceneries?

My eyes gave me away.